The End
I did it. It’s over.
I’ve lost underwear, two friends and one lover in one week.
There is a knicker thief in my neighbourhood. I'm missing six pairs.
I broke up with dear D, my boyfriend and best friend of four years, two months and twenty-nine days.
I did not RSVP to J’s party invitation.
I won’t ever have to pretend I’m listening to the woes of J’s life. I don’t have to come visit her little unit with her half dead plants and her crazy housemate who is constantly wearing a jumper no matter what temperature it is.
I am a strong believer in destiny...what's meant to be will be (and all that crap)...I will not say this break up is for good, but I will say that I do not want him now. Not too clear on any other day, but most definately not now.
I am relieved when I think, I won’t ever have to make up excuses just to see him. I won’t have to feel disappointed once I do see him and realise that he doesn’t realise I’m there. I won’t have to be ready to leave at all times…just in case he calls.
I wish I could eradicate his scent from my bed, car, clothes and skin.
I hope someone comes along to steal my heart. I hope they are honest and will keep the promise to look after it. No I don't. I...hope for it eventually.
I’m scared shitless of being alone. Although it is probably the only thing I need right now.
I’ve lost underwear, two friends and one lover in one week.
There is a knicker thief in my neighbourhood. I'm missing six pairs.
I broke up with dear D, my boyfriend and best friend of four years, two months and twenty-nine days.
I did not RSVP to J’s party invitation.
I won’t ever have to pretend I’m listening to the woes of J’s life. I don’t have to come visit her little unit with her half dead plants and her crazy housemate who is constantly wearing a jumper no matter what temperature it is.
I am a strong believer in destiny...what's meant to be will be (and all that crap)...I will not say this break up is for good, but I will say that I do not want him now. Not too clear on any other day, but most definately not now.
I am relieved when I think, I won’t ever have to make up excuses just to see him. I won’t have to feel disappointed once I do see him and realise that he doesn’t realise I’m there. I won’t have to be ready to leave at all times…just in case he calls.
I wish I could eradicate his scent from my bed, car, clothes and skin.
I hope someone comes along to steal my heart. I hope they are honest and will keep the promise to look after it. No I don't. I...hope for it eventually.
I’m scared shitless of being alone. Although it is probably the only thing I need right now.
posted by one word letters at 10:06 PM
2 Comments:
Wait, you called a full break? Not a temporary break? Oh honey, I'm sorry. I really wish I could be there for you in person, but you know you can get me any time of day or night.
You are deserving of the finest things in this lifetime, Tina. Please don't regret the four years just gone -- it's made you who you are today.
Be resolute, be strong. You have my unwavering support, no matter what you do. I love you, my bestest friend ever.
BB, I guess it is a full break. I think that's the only way he'll get it. It's hard as hell but I think I can do it. I'll just have to keep myself occupied.
I'll join a gym or something. So start eating, you know we have a designated weight to maintain between the both of us!
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